Thursday, December 30, 2010

Ayah



25 Disember 2010

 The day that changed my entire life, sumpah. Unexpected that he leaves us, me mama and sissy. Ayah tapenah saket, tapenah tunjuk pun dye saket but tiba-tiba he got an heart attacked dekat tempat kerja. Around 4 mama called me asked me to get home (JB) masa tu im was at shah alam just get finished my lunch with boyfee, wan and mel. Mama called me like seriously crying and i was saterted to cried too. I asked him to sent me over bustand sebab nak balek jb sangat-sangat. Masa tu dalam kepala ni dah tak fikir apa dah selain AYAH, NAK AYAH. Tepat pukul 4.30 cik halim called me said that ayah was gone, Ya Allah, macam halilintar dekat telinga lali, terus aku meraung menanges dalam kereta masa tu, faisal seboleh2 calm me down but i can't sebab sumpah rasa nak terbang balek time tuh jugak. I keep crying from shah alam to bukit jalil, in the bus on the way to Jb. Hm, okay tak sanggup nak sambung sebab ini pun rasa nak menanges sangat dah. Sumpah rindu ayah sangat. Ralat sebab jumpa dye dalam keadaam macam tu. Terjatuh aku depan pintu right after mak long pimpin aku masuk ruma tengok ayah, merangkak aku peluk badan ayah masa tuh, banyak kali aku cium ayah before pak ngah and yang laen nak angkat ayah. Kuat aku genggam besi tu taknak bagi ayah pergi. Muka ayah senyum jek masa tuh macam dye tengah tidur, tenang sangat.. Ayah, rindu sangat dengan ayah. Beriya-riya dye nak aku balek. Mama cakap ayah nak makan burger Mc'd prosperity tapi ayah hold dulu sebab ayah cakap " taknak la, along takde takbest, kita tunggu dye balek laa" each time teringat ni sumpah aku menanges non-stop. Hari-hari aku nanges nak tidur, teringat muka ayah, dye ketawa and all. Macam tak percaye sangat dye dah takde, sumpah. Last aku balek few weeks ago, dye layankan aku macam-macam nak makan itu ini. Ade sekali tu, dah pukul 11.00pm, credit aku habes, aku dah pesan dengan ayah nanti belikan topup. Dye balek dye tak belikan, merajuk aku. Sanggup dye keluar malam2 pergi 7E bawah belikan aku topup. Dye datang bilik aku dye cakap " nah topup, haa berseri sikit muka, sengeh pun " Ya Allah, berdosanya aku bila teringat balek. Dye tak sempat tengok aku grad, tu paling aku sedeh sebab dye beriye-riye suka sangat aku continue study. Aku sekarang suka duduk sorang-sorang kat hall tempat dye salu duduk. Terasa macam dye ade sebela aku. Malam-malam terasa macam dye balek keje, senyum lah, sengeh lah, buat muka la and all. Paling mahal is mata kelip-kelip dye bila dye tasuke aku buat something, haha. Comel! Aku suka sakat dye kadang bila dye sikat rambut, padahal takde rambut sangat tapi sikat mengalahkan rambut aku lama dye. Aku pegang hp dye, aku bukak gambar dye, tergelak sambil menanges aku tengok gambar2 dye, posing bapak aku duh kat iskandar tuh, adui. Hee. Rindu sangat..Sumpah. Aku dah takde semangat nak sambung study, sumpah. Aku nak dekat dengan mama and adek. Tapi mama marah, mama cakap teruskan, ingat pesan ayah and all. Ayah nak sangat aku dengan adek pakai tudung, banyak kali dye kias-kias cuma aku dengan adek ni 'liat' sikit nak ikut, hee.  Niat memang ada. Insya'Allah aku akn pakai tudung lepas 100 hari nanti, pesan ayah and pesan mama. Sikit2 aku nak beruba. Jiwa aku da kosong sangat, ralat tak dapat jumpa ayah lama-lama. Hm, along rindu sangat dengan ayah. Semoga ayah dicucuri rahmat oleh-NYA dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman, AL-FATIHAH.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

what the ??



What the? What the fucking hell was happened?kill me 
GOD, please gimme a powerful strenghtness to get through off it *sigh

To those person : YOU are great, YOU are nice but theres must be a limit THERE
To whom may concerned : Im so sorry, from the bottom of my heart, I SWEAR



sumpah,  aku menyesal.
Enough said that im was fucking regret, forgive me please, PLEASE!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Busy GILA

Yer yer aku tahu da berabaad aku tak update blog kan? Sory aku busyteramat dengan hal hal dunia ni, haih. Kehulur kehilir sampai terlupa dengan semua, maaf! Will update this Sh | Alyna soon okay, love you guys :)

Monday, December 6, 2010

Been tagged by Arine Romano :)


INSTRUCTIONS: fill out the question and make a new note called “ABC About You“. Then tag 25 people. If you got the tagged by me, ypu have to take this survey and repost it.

A – AVAILABLE: No no, taken by my <3 Faisal Adnan :)
B – BIRTHDAY: May 14, 1989
C – CRUSHING ON: Johny depp, Shah jazley and  Remy Ishak, SUMPAH wei! :D
D – DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Ribena, Mirinda Strawberry & teh o suam
E – EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: anything, im a good listener :)
F – FAVOURITE SONG AT THE MOMENT: Grenade & Just the way you are by Bruno Mars, aww!
H – HOMETOWN: Johor Bahru sweet home, even i langsung tak tahu kadang place around here, LOL                                                                
I – IN LOVE WITH: Bruno Mars :)
J – JUNGLE: Ha? jungle land bole? Geez!
K – KILLED SOMEONE: So far tapenah lagi
L – LONGEST CAR RIDE: LOL, takde lesen lagi. Baik kan budak ni :)
M – MILKSHAKE FLAVOUR: Cappuchino milkshake pleaseeeee! *drooling*
N – NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: Just 2, me and sissy. I hate her yet love her.
P – PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Err, ika kot?
S – SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Life is wonderful, Jason Mraz. Remind me to him <3
T – TIME YOU WOKE UP: Heh? Weekdays 8.00 am Weekend 12.00pm Kot, anak dara apa tah, ish.
U – UNDERWEAR COLOR: colourfull wei 
W – WORST HABIT: Messed up my hair when i feltbored tak kirelah mana aku timetuh and tarik (betulkan) bra.
X – XRAYS YOU’VE HAD MOST RECENTLY: Last three month (ankle) :"(
Y – YOYOS ARE: Apa jadah tu?
Z – ZODIAC SIGN: Taurus baby :)

Thank you arine :)

Pesta makan :D

Sunday
5/12/2010
 My stomach get so fucking damn full with all those food weh. -.-" Suuummpaaaah nak meletop perut saya, haha. Thank you mama making this for your daughter, hee! Okay petang tuh ayah balek we off to pasar search for the bahan-bahan. Semangat ni dah buat laksa, macam-macam beli. I sendiri yang pilih okay, mama and ayah tengokan je. Hahaha! Heaven gilaa rasa :) Sampai sampai rumah, tukar baju and start buat, weee :) Makan sampai saket-saket perot duh, -.-. heee.
Then, sempat mms gambar laksa ke boyfriend, LOL. Si bf berda di utara, langkawi bercuti disan dengan family tercinta. Hee. Texting and online and makan lagi. Kembang lah perut, gebu lah pipi aku nanti, -.-"

Sedeh ni, Suddenly he texted me saying that atuk dye dah meninggal, hmm. Takziah from me and my family. Sabar ok b, dah tiba masa dia kan. Sama-sama kita doakan atuk u okay. hmm.

Al-Fatihah

Saturday, December 4, 2010

*smiling

Woke up and mandi bagai, tengok tv, download cerita cartoon pinky and the brain, ogy and the coakroashes, BArney and friends and makan nasi goreng favii mama while watching those my favii story at my lovely babay room without any panas, any nyamuk, any gangguan and all :) OH HEAVEN! Mama masak besttttttt hari ini! Eeee rasa tamau balek jungle dah :)

Home sweet home :)

Semalam, habes jek settle all those things, me kak ina and bee ika off to shah alam. Bee sent me there dengan kaka ina sebab we both nak balek ruma! Weehuu! I balek jb while kak ina balek ipoh. Ticket pukul 6.00pm and sempat cari jambu sedap kat 18,heee. Rindu sangat kat shah alam sampai bee and me sesat sekejap. Oh, kami sempar ber-racing dengan satu kereta poyo ni, eeew! Kau lame lah bang, kereta kau tak hot pon, blergh!
Then muah2 dengan bee cuz she have to meet her boyfee and kak ina pun naek bus. Hati tersangat lah girang nak balek ke jb dengan harapan dapat berjumpa dengan si buah hati tetapi beliau kena pulang ke kampung pada hari yang sama, SEDEHNYAAAAA :"( sob sob sob. Kita berselisih dekat ayer keroh kan b? Okay sedeh, hukhuk. Sampai jb around 11.15pm macam tu, mama ayah and adek dah tunggu kat sri putri then we off to makan makan !! Oh heaven kau! perot memang tengah starved like hell and mama order macam-macam sebiji macam dalam cerita Ngangkung tu weh! Siakap 3rasa,kailan,sotong tepung,tomyam,ikan stim,satay and tak ingat lagi. Gila? Tetengah malam anak beranak melantak kau kau. HAHAH im so fucking full and senggugut lagi, hadoy! Loveyoufamily :) While si boyfriend sedang driving mengantikan ayah nya. :) Sampai ruma, mandi-mandi, tumbuk-tumbuk dengan adek, amek laptop and online kejap. Period pain sangat killing me, duh! Off to bed and si boyfee texted me said that dye pun da selamat sampai, alhamdulillah :) texted sekejap and we both teedo sebab terlampau penat.

period pain please berambus ASAP, i hate you lah! Grr

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Heylo thursday :)

Heylo Thursday. Woke up so early today, pukul 7.00am saya dah bangun! *clap to me * teedo pukul berapa b? 5.30am something macam tu, heee. Supposed ada class on 9.00am, statistic, but then cancelled tiba-tiba! Gosh! Heaven nya saya pun sambung teedo since pagi tadi tersangatlah sejuk ya amat :) Bangun2 around 12.00pm texted boyfee and have my lunch while texting with him, hee. Then online gedik gedik view myspace kejap and stalk2 gelak2 and texting dengan si buah hati lagi, heee. Rindu lah dah lama sangat tajumpe, so handphone jek lah medium kami berinteraksi, huu. Sempat teedo kejap before off to visual programming class on 5.00pm. Off to class and sempat beli doughnut and air bandung at cafe fsp. Eh, air bandung dia sedap lah! Serious! Esok berazam mahu beli lagi, heee :D

Tadi class visual programming besh! Sebab en faudzi yang ajar, haha so tak lah boring otak aku belajau coding petang petang cengitu kan. Cuma last week sapa suro gedik tak pergi lab, kan da hilang 10 marka! dush! Berazam taknak ponteng lab lagik and berazam mahu bangun awal tiap hari memandangkan class khamis and jumaat pagi pagi buta! -.-" Kejap lagi mahu compile notes, and baca untuk lab esok. Hari ini saya tak pergi riadah, kenapa? Sebab saya tak mahu. Nanti everything effected, huu. Less kan okay? Yeay! Yes, still texting dengan hubby sayang lagi ni, weee. Gedik? Lantaklah okay belog aku, bukan belog kauuuu setonnn! Okay okay, esok class sangat packed tapi sangat berharap agar class petang tu cancel! sebab boleh balek jb cepat! heee! I cuti sampai selasa oh, haih kalau dulu taknak balek pun takpe sebab dia ada sini but now he is not here and tak tau nak lepak mana and all. If before met him, i was fucking *h* and sesuka hati jek nak kelua dengan sapa aku nak tak kira kau sape, haha ! But now, tak reti dah sebab ada hati mesti dijaga, hee. Even it look like simple things but we can't predict what's goin on next kan, mulut org ni bahaya, nanti dia nampak lain, dia cakap lain kat orang lain. Saya tak  keluar dengan orang laen sekarang melaenkan dengan my angels girlfriend or dengan kawan lelaki pun beramai-ramai, not alone :)

Okay, need to get my sleep since esok class pack! :) Goodnight everyone :)

soalan pelik

Semalam dah 2 kali beliau tanya soalan pelik. Apa dia soalan itu? Adalah, haha! And for sure im happy with his answer sebab it seems like we asked each other that pelik question, LOL. What i felt? Speechless and macam nak pukul budak sepet tu right now! Ngeeee! akusayangkaufahamtak, iloveyouunderstandornot eh b? hahaha dush! Semalam makan sumpah banyaaaaaaaaaaak gila, phew! Macam nak meletup jek perut ni okay, pfft! Okay, blur taktau nak tulis apa dah, Nak layan Alisa, lame! -.-  Later on 5pm ada class visual programming with Mr faudzi yg funny, LOL. Have a nice day people :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

kelam KABOT

Kelam kabot. Yes, sangat kelam okay this starting new semester. Phew! Still berterabur and all. Class only from tuesday - friday tapi jadula sangat SUKA -.- tuesday 2.30pm-4.30pm, wednesday 11am-1.00pm, thursday 9.00am-12.00pm ( tak sure ) friday 8.00am -7.00pm (pack!)  That mean, bole bergerak balek ke ampang pelempang on friday and return back to jungle on monday or tuesday pun bole since class tuesday tu pukul 2.30pm!! weee :))

Okay, class da start. Statistic, web development and visual programming. Computer networking belum lagi sebab lecturer takde. Hmm. Okay sangat bersemangat sem ni taknak main-main lagi dah! Less-clubbing, less-mainmain, less-berangan and all. Strike for best result! baiki pointer weh! huk! Oh, i can get through of it since first week sebab he told me that "u will use by it soon" and yes sayang, i can, yeay for me !! :) And tentu tentu lah i missed him like hell. Selalu sangat gaduh means misunderstanding and all but alhamdulillah we can get through off. well, it's quite difficult sometimes sebab jauh kan, macam-acam benda unexpected muncul but then okay. Haih. As you said b, kita jauh so maxam-macam benda bole jadi and jealousy makin kuwat, so true! Im  fuckin mad jealousy weh NOW, shit. -.-"

He 'have' something to settle himself at jb. A big things la jugak. Pity on my hubby. It's okay dear, you can get through of it. Sooner or later you may be able becomes like before okay? Susa senang sama-sama rite dear :) ILY boy.

Flu



i hate flu MUCH

bye