FLU

Tak paham betul. Asal balek hutan je flu, asal hutan je flu, asal flu je hutan. what the fuck! eiiii, benci. dah lah sini panas macam celaka, debu, kotoq! eeeee. rimas rimas rimasssss !! surrounding macam hape, macam mana nak focus belajaq?! kimaks, haih. K jap nak buat keje. Jap lagi aku sambong maki, berokben da sehat. Bye

Entah.

ENTAH nak letak title apa. Okay, midterm ITPM dah lepas. Now :-

Tuesday 22/08/2011 - Midterm Enterpreneurship
                                 - ITPM quiz 
Wednesday 23/08/2011 - IT Politics Quiz

Lepas tu dah boleh zassss balek jb, yeay !! Oh, takde hati nak raya. Hm. Baju raya satu apa pun tak beli. Duit mama bagi 500bux aku bayar yuran kesemua duit itu sebab takde hati nak shopping. Dari buat bukan-bukan, baik aku pergi bayar yuran. kan? Hm. Takde mood nak raya, serious. Ya Tuhan, beri aku kekuatan. Aku taknak menanges depan mama lagi. Aku rindu ayah, sangat.

Lemas rimas.

Lemas rimas. Apa lagi weh? Apa apa? Tak cukup-cukup lagi ke apa? Aku diamkan bukan sebab aku takut or what tapi aku malas nak banyak bunyi. Say it in on my face lah, apa guna macam itu. Tahan aleyna tahan, tak lama je lagi tak lama. Be fake to me, i will be more faker to you darling. Makan hati je. I dnk why this year, this semester was totally rubbish and bullshit. True friends dah habes study left me all lone here. My 'spirit' gone after ayah pergi. There is nothing left inside here, i swear. NOTHING. Kau tengok aku gelak ketawa macam cilaka bagai kau ingat aku bahagia inside here? No ones know how it feels, almost a year ayah pergi and yet i still cant accept it. Penat sangat dah, elak aku gila je. Dengan perangai kau kau kau kau semua yang macam apa, facing those things hari-hari. What the? I missed my old life, serious. Not this kind of life. Pathetic looser, bye

DONE, supersighs

Tepat pukul 3.00am done semua kerja, alhamdulillah. Your magic words berkesan lah sayang, lol. Okay time to sleep. Off to bed peeps. Esok class 8.30am,then kena jumpa Puan Nik lagi, petang hantar proposal and class. Malam nak study for tomorrow midterm's, ergh! Tension !! fakiulah.

Night world :)

Hati.

*sukatengokkattangantu,macamsweetsweetjekan,hee*

Randomly.

Tak dapat memorize semua, so aku update yang mana ingat je eh? Here we go..

#Malaysia VS Singapore-shit

dengan kak julie.

Shark :)

#kenduri rumah amin ahmad

with ICEBLENDED crew :)

#with GF's at Rasta, TTDI

#with BF's, LOL

#SHIHIN, jakun. Baru tejumpe kat JB, LOL.

Spentime dengan sepet.

Haritu, lama dah. Around July he were here. Came from JB and we spentime together. woot! woot! sekejap je lah bukan honeymoon pong -,- Sangat senonok tau tak senonok, hee! Pergi zoo negara tau. Korang ade deting pegi tempat panas macam tahi tu? *ayatmanestapiprotes* tak kan? Tapi kami ye! Hee suwitt jek kau bawak aku pi zoo kan b? Hitam kite kejap. Tapi takpe, dengan kau jadi merah pon aku sangop *muntah* HAHA. Jejalan kesansini pastu malam jumpa Oni and the gang kat ampang. Ha penat kauu. Tapi best! Kesian sepet rindu sesangat dengan kawan-kawan main guli dia, so selaku gf yang baik aku temankan, baik kan? *tepuktangan*

Muka sepet serious macam nak tumbuk kan? :*

sayangkaudoh,bye.

Behabok and HELLO !!

Ya amponnnnn lamanya tak update. Sory do. Aku lupa password. Tadi aku verify email baru boleh. Hee. Okay since aku dah ade berokben, so insya'allah aku akan update serajen habes. Hee. Banyak cerita nak story mory ni tapi lek luu keje aku betimbon tu haa nak kene settle. Tak tambah nak study midterm and kuiz blabla balabala lagi, boleh mati! -,-

Oh, sangat rindu belog ni. Huu. Meh siom sket, mmuah! hahaha. yeay! dah bile memekak! dah bole memaki! suka! suka! *lompatlompat*

Jap, kasi aku kemas bilik yang dah takde rupa bilik ni dulu, nanti aku mai naa. :)

Busy

Hai, salam. How are you guys? Bapak ah sumpah busy gila and i'll try ASAP to bayar my berok band cepat-cepat and upload photo and post. Even busy, exhausted, but i still have my precious and good time with people around me, alhamdulillah :)

I have beautiful and gorgeous girlfriends next to me and the best boyfriend which who always standing besides me, best mama and sissy in the world! *hugs & kisses* :*

Been busy, no off day. Stret kerja. So, later yeah. Have a good days peeps. Love you !!

Aku tak sengaja, jangan hukom aku acam aku bunoh orang.

To whom may concern :

I know you may read my post and this is absolutely for you dear friend. Aku dah explain, aku tak sengaja. jangan lah hukum aku macam aku bunuh kau. Ya, kau nampak kau baca belog aku macam aku takde buat apa kat ruma, lepak-lepak keluar dengan boyfee and all. Tapi aku buat macam-macam perkara during my semester break yang seciput tu. Kau tak percaya? Terserah. Tapi aku punya banyak kerja harus dibuat that time. Aku tak expect jadi cengini. Aku tahu aku salah. Bukan kita tak jumpa teros, kan? Soon or later ada rezeki ada masa kita jumpa jugak, i hope so coz i do misses you my old friend. Kalau aku tak ingat kau, aku tak carik belog kau, amek tahu apa kau buat all this while. Sebab apa? Sebab aku carekan kau lagi even kita lost contact (agakla). Aku busy urus banyak benda tolong mama since my pa passed away. Please jangan hukom aku. Kalau kau rasa kau memang tak nak lepak dengan aku lagi, aku tak paksa tapi aku tetap akan cari satu masa sesuai untok lepak dengan kau one day, i really hope and wish so much. Duh, kau marah aku tahu. Aku kenal dan masak sangat dengan perangai kau. Takpe, aku salah, kau berhak marah. Jaga diri kau. Aku akan call kau once aku betul-betul set free time aku untok kau, selagi tu, selagi itu lah aku takkan carik kau, okay? Puas hati tak? Hope so you will satisfied my dear friend.


Aku nak lepak gelak celaka layan kepala kau macam dulu, aku arap dapat rasa lagi, ty.


nedy.

Busy

Hello there. How are you guys? How was your day recently? Wish having such a good moment peeps. Yup, currently at Damansara which my new house for s year (according to the agreement, phew) I've decided to work as part-timer at OU. Alhamdulillah tak susah nak cari kerja since banyak i dapat but lepas fikir2 i choose keje kat boutique Roxy. Why? Sebab tak banyak kerenah kerja kat situ. Macam potong gaji sana-sini and bagai. At least i have y own fix salary monthly so that bolehlah bayar duit rumah. Lain nak cakap apa, up to them they doen't know what my problem is, how i suffered and what i'm facing with. Cakap lah kau, brainwashkan lah aku selagi kau nak, tapi aku stick with my own word, fullstop. Aku sokong apa kawan-kawan buat, wish you and pray for all of you okay :)

Oh sangat penat, sumpah. Settle macam-macam bala. OMG. Kawan? No comment. Masing-masing dah besar, pandai fikir, ada mata nampak, ada mulut senyum, ada hati, pendam. Senang. Malas nak banyak bunyik. Tengokan aje :)

Nothing much happend. Oh, ini sibai. My berokbend belum bayarrrr. Damnnn. Ni pun pinjam kejap, Huwaaa. Oh okay, i wanna to seek apoloy from one of my favourite friend, Park Chipsmore aka Langau. Hm. Sory ngau, bukan sengaja. I know you mad with me, based on what you said tadi. I know you well, sangat masak dengan perangai kamu. But trust me, tak sengaja, tak sengaja nak makes you waiting for me to hang out. Like serious. Hm. Forgive me friend. I do and i really hope that i could lepak with you after this and please don't say NO :)

Lemau sangat rasa rini, so got to go. Take care peeps. Have a nice day :)

P/s : hope kerja ni boleh kurussssss, yeay! hik.

Lu berbual macam CI, tahu?

Nampak entry? LU BERBUAL MACAM CI, LU TAHU? Apa itu ci? Ha ni ambek, bukak mata besar-besar LU BUAL MACAM CIBAIIIII. LU TAHU? LU takpayah nak bajet suci macam angel text guwa tru gb bagai konon wa hamak sangat ambek berat pasal lu lah pompuan. Oh, lu pun sama lah jantan. Lu ingat wa nak take note sangat ke apa lu cakap dengan wa? Lu pumpang-pumpang bajet wa nak layan sangat? Hello, kalau dah KP (googlesendiriapaitu KP) KP gak laaaa. Tak kisah lu mekak dengan wa lu baik mana pun. Ade faham? Bagos, so pergi mam. (googlesendiriapetuMAM )

Balik KL, eh tak Damansara.

Heyyo peeps. I'm currently in damansaraaaa yaww. Lebih specific Flora Damansara. New house. Tingkat 14 kauu. Nak buno diri simple, panjat tingkap tutup mata, tejon. Senang kan? Tayah makan pil-pil, sekali gus je terus. okay mengarot. I loves to view dari tingkat 14 ni. OMG sayuu gila hati. Teringat dengan semua. Mama adek and cocaine. Sumpah. malam-malam teringat pegi jejalan dengan cocaine dulu-dulu, sobs.
Okay dah.

Semalam, jumaat. Ticket bus pukul 10.15am, i'm asked cocaine to sent me over Sri Putri. Sebab nak dengan cocaine sangat before balik since i've been so fuck sensitive young ladyyy khamis tu. Malam pun same, ngade lebeh kau ni. Ahh lantak ah! Wa punya suka ah, Dalam hati ade taman brooo. Aha. Mama pergi kerja pagi tu je dah sedeh sangattt. Bangun kejut cocaine terus mandi and main dengan shirooo. Dia macam mengedik dengan aku. HAHA. Cocaine dtg around 10.00am then sobs sobs sobs. Ngengade sungguh kalini, eeee. Manje sangat! Lempang sket kau ni nak? -.- Lantakkkkkkkk laaaaaaaaa, ckp dengan tangan daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

Okay sampai BTS zaty ambil then we off to damansara check rumah letak barang and all. Homaigod bahuuu akuuu nakk patahhhhhhhhh. Serious. bapak ah. Macam apa dah rase. Then malam me, nani, zaty and alin with her adek went to Ikea. Konon nak survey and makan meatballs je tapiiii dah melabor kat situ. $$$$ habess. Doe, aku kalau dah pergi Ikea tu, tak beli apa-apa memang tak sah. Bukan penting pun tapi macam nakkk jee beli kan. Lagi-lagi nak hias bilik sesantekkk. Ehem. Theme bilik mera hitam putih and dark pink. Whoa! berebut dengan zaty theme ni, lantaklaaaaaa. Aku akan pastikan bilik aku lagi lawo dari kauuu. HAHA. Balek memang dah terbongkang. mandi and onlinee. Celcom buat hal. Aku text dengan cocaine tak dapat2. eeee. geram. Dah la rinduuuuuu, huuu.

Nanti i'll upload some pictures, cable tak bawak. tapi mesti akan dapatkan jugak cable, penting wooo. Hee. see ya :)


p/s: Sukaa gilos dengan rambut baru cocaine :)) Nah, bonusss extra Muuahhhxxxx ;*

Dear Friend,

Dear friend. Thanks for that, thanks for the note. I have nothing to say it off anymore and i choose to be let you said, feel or whatever you want to. Aku malas sebab aku dah tak punya hati nak sayang kawan macam mana aku sayangkan kau, dulu. This is the hell and shit things happened to us. Aku hargai semua kawan aku like i told you but it's all up to them how they analyze and debug *fak ayat IT* then. Just please ingat pesan aku, ingat tu satu je. Aku tak minta lain, aku minta kau jaga diri kau baik-baik. Kalau kau tanya kenapa, i said this is for last, perasaan aku dah mati & semangat aku dah lama hilang since the day. I'm just let my life follow with the flow with nothing inside here. Kau pun rasa and faham macam mana  when someone important in your life was gone, kan? Mati semua. Heartless. Kosong and nothing left.

Dear friend, you won't never know how i misses you much. Misses the moment we was gelak macam lahanat and bangang and all. It won't be happen again, am i right? Its okay then, you have your new friend there, and i have my life here which you won't never know how does it feels. Please, please take a good care of your self.

You know who YOU are

Thanks :)

Enough,

Enough. Penat sangat non-stop crying macam ni. Dah lama sangat tak nanges macam ni. Sampai bengkak-bengkak mata, peneng kepala, saket-saket kepala. Ingat pesan ayah dulu shazlina aleyna. Remember what he teached and told you. Ingat. jangan lupa, ingat semua tu. Rapuh jugak kan bila dah macam ni. Dah lama tak rasa kosong macam ni. I am being fake in front of them, i have too. Sambel dengar my best singer Chris medina by his song What are words let me become more tisu, alahai. Rasa nak peluk peluk jek chris ni lah. Hmm.

Okay, mata dah bengkak teruk sangat dah ni sampai ramai sangat menegur tadi. Mama, i lovess youu so muchhh. Please tabah okay? along kalah kalau mama menitik, along hilang semangat. Adek, score SPM betul-etul. Ingat apa ayah pesann, okay? Mata bengkak teruk, kepala saket kuat sangat menanges. Sabar nedy :)

Harini betul-betul rasa looser, kosong and nothing left inside. I dont know why, demmit. Kuatkan hati aku esok Ya Allah, amin.

Awak,

Awak,
kenapa awak lain sekarang,
saya tahu saya teruk, awak dah berubah hati ke?


Awak,
Kenapa awak makin kasar sekarang,
saya perempuan, hati saya sebenarnye senang sangat rapuh.


Awak,
Kenapa awak dah tak macam dulu,
Saya taknak cakap, tapi saya dapar 'rasa'
Itu bunuh saya hari demi hari.


Awak,
Kenapa awak macam 'ni' sekarang
Saya perlukan awak, saya nak awak.
Kalau lah awak faham apa ada dalam ni.


Awak,
Awak, saya rindu awak yang dulu
Sumpah, nak awak yang dulu.


Awak,
Terima kaseh sebab banyak ubah saya
Saya terhutang budi dengan awak
sampai mati


Awak,
Awak jadi macam dulu balik boleh tak?
Saya rasa macam dah hilang awak
Saya tahu saya tak cukup sempurna untuk awak.


Awak,
Awak jangan pernah kasihankan saya ye
Saya tak mintak itu, saya mintak awak jujur dengan saya


Awak,
Kalau saya buat salah, saya mintak maaf
Sebelum saya pergi, awak maafkan saya ye
Halalkan semua, saya mintak maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki


Awak,
Saya nak awak tahu,
Saya betul-betul sayangkan awak selepas keluarga saya.


Awak,
Kalau awak dah tak sayang saya lagi,
Awak cakap yeh? Nanti saya lepaskan awak pergi jauh dari saya
Saya sayang awak, sangat.

Mana awak pergi

Mana? Awak kat mana? Where are you when i do need you the most. I do really need you by this time. I mean it. I felt like looser. I need you. I wish i could run into your arms and feel safeeeelyyy there. Sumpah, bt the time i was so freaking weak, longlai, hope-less and all. I need you, sumpah. I need you.
Ya Allah, kuatkan hati hamba-MU ini.

kalaulah kau   faham apa aku perlukan sekarang.

The quote

Nanges bila i ada, so that i boleh hug you nanti.

Nanges bila i dengan you, nanti you tak lah nanges sorang-sorang.


Don't cry, cry when you are with me


Bagi direction yang paling senang nak ke sane, i dtg nak dinner dengan you now. Even jauh lantakla, yang i tahu, you are there with me, fullstop!


Mana kau?! Sini !! Kan aku da cakap, aku nak hug kau kalau kau nanges!


Jangan mule! Tungggu aku sampai then run into my arms, you will safe there.


These are favourite quote by several books/novel/magazine i've read before. The way the story goes was so actractive and i loves their dialog/quote with the situation, kinda sweet. Don't you think? Terlupa those title, butt it's was preety cool babe :)


i'm was crying, by the time. Ya, i am. Anyone please lend me your shoulder please? Idk why i am so sensitive today. Can't stop crying,omg. What happened to me? i need someone that could lend their arms or shoulder for me to feel safe, please?

The song

What are words

what are words

CHRIS MEDINA - What are words :)

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

his fiance have a traumatic brain injury, but they are still together for 9years! this song is definitely for her. Gosh! He really a man :)

Tears drop by each time im heard this song. The feels comes so naturality, cause i could felt what does they felt too :)